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Who I want to meet in Heaven

I’ve been checking exams and computing for grades the whole day.


I need a break.


Let me see.


I have a lot of things in my mind at the moment – actually, since last night. I slept at about 3 am but I was not doing anything but staring on the ceiling.


A lot of thoughts were in my mind last night.


I wondered how and when I could go over this health concern. I’ve been processing papers and it’s taking me long making a decision. I was supposed to visit a doctor of ENT today but I still couldn’t make up my mind so I didn’t go.


I was also thinking about the movie THE FIVE PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN. I’ve read the book by Mitch Albom and I love it, the same way that I love his other books, e.g. Tuesdays with Morrie and For One More Day. When I watched the movie, it made me wonder what I am here on Earth for.


I imagined who I want to meet in heaven when I die – ha ha – as if I am sure to go to heaven or as if there is indeed heaven. And so I thought, I want to meet Sir Solis, my twin babies, Layne, and maybe my father. I want to see them in heaven and talk to them and ask them about a lot of things which I don’t really understand at the moment.


I want to ask Sir Solis why he didn’t talk to me before he left and if he knew how much I wanted to talk to him the last time I saw him at PS building during the Kapihan.


I wanna see my twin babies and let them know how much I miss the days I didn’t have with them. I want to see them and hold them tight.


Maybe I would not have to ask Layne a lot of questions because I had enough time to ask him all questions I could ever think of. But I just want to see him and let him know how much he means to me.


Finally, I want to see my father. I will have to ask him a lot of questions. Why he just left us when we were kids, why he was too coward to accept responsibilities, etc. But aside from asking him questions, I also want to find out how it feels to stand face-to-face with a father. I haven’t known how it felt to be standing next to my biological father. I want to know if I could ever accept him as my father.


It's raining.


Perhaps it means it's time to sign off. (lol)

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