My Socially Constructed Reality

11 years, 3 months, 16 days. It's  long overdue.  That's the truth.  I've long wanted to resign.  Believe me, my heart knows it. Don't get me wrong.  I love my work as member of the faculty.  Well, I learned to love teaching, as I develop relationships with my students. But along the way, I had to convince myself to believe and make other people believe that there was nothing wrong.  In this world, everything could go wrong, but not everyone is willing to challenge what's wrong to make it right. Many times, people change their belief s, or at least pretend to have changed it,  so they could accept what's wrong, instead of challenging what's wrong to make it right. In this world,  sometimes, when you try to make things right, you become wrong. It's been 11 years, 3 months, and 16 days. I decided I don't want more of these things which I find wrong. Please, let me let myself go.

Background Sometime in July, Jobstreet.com sent me list of job vacancies which are aligned with my degree and experiences.  Well, I have been subscribing to Jobstreet for years and I already have tried applying to some companies in the past, but for some reasons, I didn't get any response.  For some, I got replies and even had interview but I didn't have the courage to leave my full-time teaching job.   So that day, while checking on the list, I saw an interesting position, social media research analyst.  When I read the qualifications and job description, I told myself, "Wow, this must be an interesting job. Something I love doing, and no doubt, I'm qualified. I can do this." So, because I was fascinated with the job description and qualifications, I updated my CV and attached it to an e-mail, then sent to the address given. I can still remember, after clicking on the "send" button, I whispered to myself, "I hope I'll get it." But da

Leaving the academe after 11 years, 3 months, and 16 days is seen by many as "a big risk."  In fact, when I was processing my resignation form, people asked me "Why?"  Well, of course, it must be an instinct to ask that question, but for them to ask "Saan ang punta mo, Ma'am?" gave me a different picture.  It turned out most employees, if not all, who have left the university went abroad.  So when I answered, "I'm not going abroad.  I'm just staying home," they did not believe me even for a second. For one, I was technically telling the truth when I said I'm staying home cause I was just hired by a company that provides home-based jobs.  Yes, I'll be doing work at the comfort of my own home :-) My colleagues and the VP for Academic Affairs asked me if I was sure about this decision.  And I said, " Yes, I'm happy about it, and I'm excited about finding a new job."  That answer was enough for them to be assur