"Let me let myself go..."

11 years, 3 months, 16 days.

It's long overdue. That's the truth. I've long wanted to resign. Believe me, my heart knows it.

Don't get me wrong. I love my work as member of the faculty. Well, I learned to love teaching, as I develop relationships with my students.

But along the way, I had to convince myself to believe and make other people believe that there was nothing wrong. In this world, everything could go wrong, but not everyone is willing to challenge what's wrong to make it right.

Many times, people change their belief s, or at least pretend to have changed it, so they could accept what's wrong, instead of challenging what's wrong to make it right.

In this world, sometimes, when you try to make things right, you become wrong.

It's been 11 years, 3 months, and 16 days.

I decided I don't want more of these things which I find wrong.

Please, let me let myself go.

Comments

kay said…

Hi po! Honestly when I heard you'll be leaving the academe I don't know why but I felt happy for you. Feeling ko bigla kayong nakalaya sa isang lugar na di ka kayang iaappreciate. But of course, I also felt sad for the current and future students. Bigla kong hiniling na sana sa ibang school nalang sila nag/mag-enroll kase kung wala kayo dun at wala din naman papalit na prof na katulad nyo sayang lang talaga ang tuition fee nila.

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